I've always felt you were a Master Manipulator, J. What I didn't realize were the extent of your dealings. You've always expressed to me that you are "crazy" and now I truly believe that you are. You need serious help (which I'm sure you realize, but ignore). You played with my heart, my emotions, my relationships/friendships with other people, and most of all my LIFE. The awful thing is that you did the same to a dear friend of mine at the SAME time (we compared notes today). What a fucking cliché. I feel like I'm in an episode of Gossip Girl. You're the Stupid Girl that Shirley Manson sings about in Garbage's hit song from the 90s.
I'm so happy I backed off from you when I did. If I had found out the truth two months ago I'd be devastated. However, now I just feel pity for you. I'm a true believer that people CAN change. Hopefully you will seek help and can indeed change. ....OR maybe some people are just bad apples and you're part of that batch.
What I do know, right this second, that you are indeed a BIG OLE MESS. By far the biggest one of anyone I personally know.